simple love

I'm such a mess.

I love that. Every day has been difficult in such beautiful manner. Being critical, I find something to upset myself over. It's stupid, but I manage to get back into a spot where it hurts. The process drains me. Yet when I reach the moments I feel the most isolated and alone, a voice floods my mind. God says, I love you. Let me take it from here. The truths I once denied about myself now flow simply. He makes me finally, finally believe that I hold worth. He carries me higher, glory to glory. I'm falling in love all over again.

An unexpected source of encouragement crept into my email this afternoon. A note from my Mimi brought me to tears as I read how she treasured being able to spend the past weekend with me and my immediate family. What a blessing! I doubt she even knows that my mundane little blog exists, but Mimi, you made my week. I love you.

I ran across this song a few weeks ago. I think I'm obsessed. :]

Green River Ordinance - Endlessly

She is my rock and my rolling thunder,
I've been the spell she was under,
I, I love that girl,
She is my cigarettes and champagne,
She's got me strong but I'm not running,
I, I love that girl,
I, I love that girl

She is the days I can't get over,
She is the nights that I call home,
Endlessly,
For you I'll always wait,
caught in the waves of hesitation,
Lost in the sea of my own doubt,
Endlessly,
For you I'll always wait,
For you I'll always wait

She is the flames in the fire, she's raging,
I've been the spark in the war she's waging,
I, I love that girl,
She came along and she spoke so sweetly,
Changed everything, took my heart completely,
I, I love that girl
I, I love that girl

She is the days I can't get over,
She is the nights that I call home,
Endlessly,
For you I'll always wait,
caught in the waves of hesitation,
Lost in the sea of my own doubt,
Endlessly,
For you I'll always wait

In city bars and empty cars,
It's 3am, I wonder where you are,
And the crooked smiles,
and the worn out miles between us,
and I wonder where you are

She is the days I can't get over,
She is the nights that I call home,
Endlessly,
For you I'll always wait,
caught in the waves of hesitation,
Lost in the sea of my own doubt,
Endlessly,
For you I'll always wait